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—This is Jayce Talis. [ that's not going to mean anything, to anyone. this man's voice is rasping, dragging, in between sounded exhausted, heavy and ill. ] I'm a scientist. I researched . . . The Arcane, with my . . . With my partner, Viktor— most of my life.

[ frequent pauses are a must. he almost feels out of breath if he doesn't, and that puffs through the radio, ragged and sluggish. ]

All of us— seem to have a symbol. A rune, on our bodies. If you've been to the Shrine, then I'm sure . . . You have something else, now. Maybe a message. Please, if you could show it to me. I'll be . . . [ another hushed pause, ] Outside the Common Room. There's a truck, with . . . Butterflies, [ the irony in his voice is dry. ] That's— Where I'll be.

If it helps get us anywhere, I . . . Need, to crack it, I . . . [ i promised, he mutters, before swiftly adding, through a strain that's tight in his throat: ] That's all.

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[ jayce is rebounding hard on his magic sepsis as his first symptom to becoming undead! so he is not visibly well for anyone who wants to come see him, but he is trying deathly hard with the symbols and trying to fight the clock with obsession. the iridescent pick up near one of the camp lights is a mess of papers in the front seats as much as the flatbed behind it, spread out and held in place with pebbles or stones, littered with those very symbols as well as formulas he's trying to link and complete like a map.

it's what keeps him from giving into sleep. ]

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[hexrot]

[ it's not exactly new, but jayce is quiet. he huffs out his words, long and dragged, ]

I'm trying.

[ he's trying to rest at night, at least the amount necessary to function, and ends up napping in short bursts. he's eaten more than his own body weight and can't seem to convert it to energy, sustenance or anything worth while.

slowly, his body rejects his diet, and yet he continues to hunger. ]

I'm hungry. I eat, [ he shakes his head, his nose wrinkling at the biological possibilities. investation of something or another makes his skin crawl. ] and it's like I've . . . Never eaten.

[bufudine]

[Serph listens, brow furrowing. A hunger that isn't slaked by the food provided by the Convoy, huh?

It's... well, Serph isn't exactly ashamed of his diet but he recognises that it probably would disturb those where demons are not a common fact of life. And with the conversations he's been having, he suspects... that the people here have never had to devour.

And if the food that is provided isn't doing anything for Jayce... It takes Serph a long moment before he makes his decision. He fixes his gaze on Jayce, watching his reaction carefully, before asking in a serious voice-]

Would you consider eating a monster?

[hexrot]

[ jayce's reaction is nothing short of placid. it barely changes. zaun's ravine had done things to him, changed him— he'd gone from savoring piltover's greatest cuisines on a bountiful platter in the lab to scavenging for scraps of dead things, trying to cook some very odd lizards to being so desperate he'd eat them raw.

he reminds himself that he doesn't need get to that again. there's a kitchen here. so with a slow, bobbing nod, jayce replies with a quiet, unjudging: ]

If it's edible.

[bufudine]

[...Hm. A surprisingly mild response.]

Then I'll hunt one tonight.

[Probably wouldn't be a good idea to dump the corpse on Jayce's doorstep though.

With that settled, Serph steps forward to show Jayce the new mark and message burned into his arm: “Aspect of Order: The strength to keep all Aspects in check and balanced, to keep from falling to Stasis. Domain of the Celestials.”]

Does Celestials mean anything to you?

[hexrot]

[ he can't exactly offer to help, which had been his first thought, but he needed to be realistic, here. he murmurs words of gratitude, reaching over to squeeze the round sphere of serph's shoulder before he drops it back to his lap. even the squeeze is not his strongest, but he thinks he could manage to cook a beast. for now, he'll give his attention to the symbol and message, writing it down and sketching the rune. ]

Anything that originates from the Celestial Realm on Runeterra. [ oh, that was a mouthful. let him get some air before going any further. this is all done as he scribbles, recalling anything from his library of memories, either from his trips, studies or mother. ] They're said to be the protectors of the universe. I . . . [ the huff comes like a single, breathy laugh. he doesn't know anything else following that, but ask him about geodes and he'll make a book. ] never had many history classes, back at the academy. That's all I know.

[ if he did, he probably didn't pay much attention. one track mind. ]

[bufudine]

[Serph wants to ask what history classes are but with Jayce looking like he could keel over at any moment, that seems like a question for when Jayce is... better. Still, a celestial is something that originates from another... world? He's not sure how he feels about being marked in association of protectors of the universe when what he's good at is the exact opposite.]

Do you need to see the other symbol from when I arrived?

[Because the mark on his face isn't it.]

[hexrot]

[ more knowledge amounted to more ignorance, but in this case? it's better than a void. ]

It'd be a good idea.

[bufudine]

[Unfortunately, the sigil had appeared on Serph's inner right thigh. Which means taking off the leg armour he's currently wearing.

With absolutely no shame, he starts undoing the fastenings with the intent to take it off and pull up the black undershorts to show the sigil branded on his skin.]

[hexrot]

[ equally shameless, jayce gives him the minute he needs to get his armour off, doesn't stare until he's being show what mark, exactly. when that's done, he gets to work on observation and reproduction, sketching the sigil to a shakey yet accurate depiction. ]

Mine's on my leg, [ he pats his thigh and rubs his palm down his brace buckles, so that's . . . not something he wants to take off right now, considering his pain, but he will look for the paper with his sigil sketch and hands it over. ] morbid, if you ask me.

[ he returns to his notes on serph's sigil and adds a bullet point and arrow to the top of the symbol. "looks like wings. higher being/heaven = wings = 6?" ]

[bufudine]

[Once Jayce is done drawing his sigil, Serph works on putting everything back on again, taking the offered drawing and inspecting it. A skull, huh... Perfectly deadpan, he says as he hands the paper back-]

Seems hard to get out of your skull.

[ANYWAY.]

Before, when I said this situation is familiar... [and they had spoken about Nirvana] ...this isn't the first time I was marked and changed.

[hexrot]

[ . . . wow. serph, wow!!! he has a funny bone??? if jayce had the energy, and even a bit of his old warmth within him, he'd make a bigger deal out of it. it's the kind of thing he'd probably love to bother cait with. jayce stares at the other man instead, for a goot few moments, before he snorts and shakes his head. the subtle edge of a smile comes just as fast as it fades.

he can see the mark on his face clear as day. he's seen it since day one. ]

Changed how?

[bufudine]

[Now that he knows Jayce thinks it's funny, there will be plenty of opportunities to rib him later-]

We all gained an Atma. A demon.

[It's easier to show, so he takes a step back as lines of bright blue spread from the brand on his face.]

I am still myself.

[The assurance seems necessary, after the tension that some Drifters shown upon seeing Varuna.

Glowing lines rapidly spread over him, wings retracting as his body grows amorphous and indistinct before his self is reshaped into a taller, humanoid creature. The entire process is quick and well practised, as mundane as slipping on a shirt.]

[hexrot]

[ the heads up helps— but even then, jayce's startle has been dulled enough that he does not seem afraid, or even tense. different forms of all kinds exist on runeterra. perhaps what is different here is that he's never seen one turn into something before his eyes. ]

. . . This is an "Atma"?

[bufudine]

[A nod in affirmation. Although he keeps the same calm, even tone, his words are a little more guttural in this form.]

We weren't in control when we first transformed.

[Though while he has control now, it doesn't stop his demon's hunger.]

Same as those outside the shields during the moon warp who lost their minds when they changed.

[hexrot]

[ jayce . . . was outside when that happened. in the radio tower, with viktor— while his partner hadn't lost his mind, his body did suffer a horrific change. jayce's eyes go from observing the demon form to losing focus, gazing ahead without gazing anywhere in particular. ]

Did you?

[bufudine]

[Serph reverts back to his humam form, the process exactly the same as before but in reverse. The hunger is more pressing when cloaked in Varuna's flesh, so it isn't wise to stay in that form for longer than necessary.]

Not this time.

[Maybe because he had done this before. But even he was not immune to the moon's effects on his body, despite his demon delaying them.]

Those I encountered were driven by strong emotion. Anger. Fear.

[Hunger.]

[hexrot]

[ that. makes him recall something else. ]

I didn't feel anything . . . Different. [ nothing beyond what he was already feeling: sick. but that was something else. something he already had that perhaps wasn't taking kindly to being in the wrong universe. he knows serph's answer meant he hadn't completely lost it, but yet begs to be questioned. ] Did you?

[bufudine]

[Hm. The changes here were rather strange compared to when he gained his Atma. Oddly incomplete, ebbing and flowing. There had been feathers on his shoulders, arms and legs, now receded. If there had been some kind of impulse from the creature he was becoming, he had not felt it. But he already has the hunger from his demon so perhaps if there was an impulse, his demon had simply drowned it out. Still, that radio message urging them to travel to Nirvana... the messenger had implored them to remain as human as they could.

Jayce had been outside the shields? Given his lack of noticeably inhuman features, Serph had assumed he had stayed within.]

No.

[But Serph is looking at the other man with renewed scrutiny. He'd looked weary when they first met but now he looks downright haggard.]

Your hunger... is it worse after the moon warp?

[hexrot]

[ jayce would never disclose what happened with him out there. how much his heart shattered was kept in his chest; at least his illness and somber mood was a match made in heaven to mask it all efficiently. he'd only say something at the last minute to serph, he thinks. it's one of the only people he'd trust with his notes, if he had to trust anyone here. for now, he waits. maybe in a few days time. maybe in a few minutes. whatever he was feeling and however this would go.

so he nudges his shoulders up in a sorry excuse of a gesture of uncertainty. ]

I don't think it matters.

[bufudine]

[Serph's expression pulls into a deep frown. There's a feeling he can't quite put a name to here. A feeling that simultaneously fills him with unease yet lights a fire within.

Quietly, but with an edge to his voice that wasn't there before, he asks-]

Why is that?

[hexrot]

Serph, [ the tone is drawn, growled, cracking when he points his emphasis: ] look at me.

[ he sees the truth, now, and maybe he was stupid to think that he could work against the clock. but now it seems unrealistic and tremendously stupid of him to think he could do this. before, love and determination had blinded him with unfaltering hope.

he doesn't seem to have that, anymore; either that, or he's understandably being more realistic the closer it approaches. ]

I'm not making it another week.

[ if he's even doing this anymore— it's for them. to make arcade's shots worth the relief before it becomes unbearable. ]

[bufudine]

[It's true that Jayce looks like a mess, barely a person held together by flesh and sinew. And yet...

Are these the feelings that Lupa had as he felt the hunger press up against him, knowing he didn't have much time left? Making the preparations for his people to be cared for, after he was gone?

...]

What about your promise?

[hexrot]

[ jayce's head immediately ducks— because his eyes are gateways into his soul. he is broken beyond repair. he wishes for death to come, now. the one thing that was keeping him alive, and going— ]

It's gone.

[ and it's catching up to him. if he speaks more, he'll break. i've already failed is lodged in his throat. to busy himself— and to perhaps finish up, because he does not feel well, jayce begins taking every single note that's been splayed across the top of the truck's cargo bed into his shaking hands, and into a pile he can hand over to him. ]

It's the best I could do.

[bufudine]

[What the hell is that supposed to mean? A promise that's gone? There's more he's missing and it's frustrating not understanding, not having the full picture, and it has Serph stretching his wings in irritation before folding them back up.

Seeing the embers of the fire behind Jayce's eyes snuffed out like this... Serph reaches out to grab Jayce by the wrist before he can finish putting away all his notes.]

I died. Then I ended up here.

[His voice is low, quiet.]

Even if your path disappears, we can carve a new one.

[hexrot]

[ jayce hears what he's saying but the melancholic curve of his brows doesn't signal his consideration. does serph know, what it's like— to look into the eyes of a man who has given up? it's hollow, distant and set. thinking about all this again has triggered him to fall apart and show it. he doesn't want to carve a new path. and he certainly doesn't want to believe there is more life after death, because then his pain would just— continue. and where would he show up? back here again? it made no scientific sense, anyway.

he didn't want to live if it was without his other half. it was codependent and awful, but it was his truth. ]

Please, just take these. [ jayce pushes the papers from his hand to serph's chest. he doesn't want to elaborate further and he does not want to discuss the what ifs if he changes his mind. ] I'm tired.